Where have I been?
There’s been a seismic shift in my environment in more ways than I care to express.
The landscape from my window has changed; the leaves have gone, there’s a real bite in the air now.
So too has the landscape of my life changed. It looks and feels as bleak as Winter; bleaker than most Winters, for not only have I said good bye to November and Autumn, but also to my beloved Mum.
6 weeks ago my Mum died unexpectedly.
Whilst in hospital recuperating after she had a bad fall, she had a heart attack. They were able to get her heart beating again and she was put into an induced coma and moved into the Intensive Treatment Unit. Within a day of being there, it became apparent that there really wasn’t anything more they could do for her. The brain damage she had sustained during the heart attack was too severe. We had to make the decision to let her go.
Although it was incredibly difficult, I was able to hold her hand, as they withdrew life support and she left this world.
The last few weeks have been some of the longest and most traumatic of my life. As some of you may know, my Dad has terminal cancer. So whilst dealing with everything to do with Mum’s death, we’ve had to watch Dad decline to the point where he no longer wants to/can get out of bed. I don’t know how long he’ll be with us.
I’m facing the prospect of losing both parents within a matter of months of each other.
During his illness and looking after both parents, blogging was a necessary respite for me. However, right now I don’t have any energy or inclination to blog. I’m going to take some more time away from the blog. I hope to return sometime in 2017, as I’ve loved blogging. It could be as early as the New Year but it does depend on how the Christmas period goes, or it could be as late as the Spring; always a time for rejunevation.
Thank you to everyone who’s support my wee corner of blogland and for some of you for asking how I’ve been recently.
I hope you all have a peaceful Christmas and New Year.
I took this photo of Mum and I holding hands last year when we went over to celebrate her birthday, never ever expecting the meaning it would hold for me today.
Love you Mum.